Archive for January, 2007

I Don’t Want To Go

Thursday, January 25th, 2007

World’s Oldest Blogger, Donald Crowdis, published a little thing on his coming to terms with the End of the Line.

I know I must go fairly soon. I just don’t like the idea.

While I like the idea of someone his age still being busy, I must admit I find his thoughts a little unnerving.

I think about death a lot. Not that I want to die, not that I’m afraid I’m going to die, but when the end comes – will it have all been worth it? And how will I face that day?

In the sunset of my life, I hoped all the little troubles and tribulations of just living would make dusk almost a welcomed thing. But obviously not.

This is why I wish I had religion. When my world goes dark, I’d like to have faith that someone will light my way.

I don’t want to achieve immortality through my work.
I want to achieve immortality through not dying.

- Woody Allen

Well its all right, riding around in the breeze
Well its all right, if you live the life you please
Well its all right, even if the sun don’t shine
Well its all right, were going to the end of the line

[Listening to: End of the Line by The Traveling Wilburys off the album Vol. 1 (3:26)]

Flame Retarded

Tuesday, January 23rd, 2007

Back in my one year of university, I often stayed up late working on papers/homework/etc at the computer.

And usually I’d have a lit candle by my side.

I had this pot shaped candle holder. I bought it at a place called South of the Border at the Avalon Mall. I feel as if it said ‘Made in India’ but I can’t really remember for sure. It was metal, aluminum I think, and coloured a deep rich purple. And, this is an important point, it had your standard 5 point stars punched through the metal all around it in slightly off set rings. (Think seats at a movie theater.)

Now, remember, that’s an important point.

Because of the shape, candles would melt down into a puddle easily and it could be a little tricky to light them again. This one night I dropped a paper match inside as I was setting it to the wick. The match went out and so I got another. A little more successful this time I blew out this second match and went to work.

After so long, I took a look at the candle and noticed that I had left the first match still in the candle holder. It was floating in the melted wax. That was kinda cool. ‘I wonder if that’ll act as a wick?’ I said to myself.

But then I turned back to my work.

Now, I don’t really know how long it was, but I eventually heard something over the music I was playing. (Not too loud, it was late at night after all.)

I turned to look at the candle and a wide flame was shooting up out of the top. About a foot and a half high.

Whoa.

What the hell happened? I tried to look inside as best (and as quickly) as I could. Turns out that match did act as wick. And it brought the flame way too close to the melted wax.

What was happening was that the wax itself was burning. It wasn’t using the wick any more. You could see it boiling on the surface and just burning.

So why were the star holes such a big deal?

Well…. remember how I said there was a sound? It wasn’t really just the wax burning. The heat and flame would rise out of the top of the holder and the holes would allow fresh air to come in the sides. More air makes more burning, which makes more heat, which rises and draws in more air. Do you see what I’m getting at?

It was like some twisted rocket engine. The sound was like a blow torch you see in the movies.

What the hell do I do? I have a very dangerous fire. My first instinct was to run up stairs and wake my parents. But just leaving it alone, even for a little bit, might be the most dangerous thing I could do.

It was obviously too hot to touch. (Doesn’t aluminum burn?!?!) And I couldn’t even think where the fire extinguisher was. (Looking back, I wonder if it would have just sprayed the burning wax all over the place)

I needed water and a way to contain this.

What I chose wasn’t the best idea I ever had, but it made sense at the time. Sorta. I got a small plate off the desk and using a knife slid the holder on to the plate. Very carefully.

I started walking to my bathroom with the focus and intensity of a tightrope walker crossing Niagra falls. One foot in front of the other. Slowly. Slowly. Do not lose your balance with this thing!

Like many plates there was a very slight convex surface to it and there was some definite teetering going on for the small trip.

With visions of the plate shattering from the sudden hot surface on it, I reached the bathroom. And remembered that my sink was plastic. That might not be the best idea.

Second choice, the bathtub. But the curtain was drawn and would I really be able to open it and bend down without spilling flaming wax everywhere?

Hummm…..

I decided that possible burn marks in the sink was worth saving the house and everyone in it. I still stand by that.

I slid the plate/roaring inferno combo as best I could under the tap and turned the cold on quickly. A little wax sprayed on the sink but it wasn’t on fire so that was just peachy. The water first made the same hiss as when it hits a frying pan but most importantly – the flame was no more.

Which was all I really cared about.

The candle holder was scorched black on the inside and the outside had gone from a deep purple to a very light lavender. Plus the bottom wasn’t quite flat any more, it bulges out ever so slightly now.

Last time I was home, Mom had it in the main bathroom as the colour was just right for the rest of the room.

I’ve never quite treated a candle the same way since.

You think I would have learned my lesson the first time. But that’s a much older (and much shorter) story.

The Times They Are a-Changin’ (back)

Sunday, January 21st, 2007

Those who don’t study history are doomed to repeat it

John Mayer‘s song “Waiting for the World to Change” depresses the hell out of me.

It feels like it’s a “re-imaging” of a 60′s protest song. And that’s what sticks in my throat. Hippies, Woodstock, Flower Power and irrational manifestos. All of this was suppose to have changed the world already.

Now John is pretty much saying we’re back where we started.

The more things change, the more they stay the same.

But the very worse is the chorus: “So we’re going to keep on waiting, waiting for the world to change

What the hell is that? Where’s the call to rally? The direction, the purpose, the “We can change things.”

It’s “Yeah man, it’s a shame. But what are you gonna do? Um.. You gonna finish that joint?”

Almost as if what’s the point of trying, we’ll be back here sooner or later.

Those that study history are doomed to know they are repeating it.

Original Mog Post

Ping Pong & Britney Spears

Wednesday, January 17th, 2007

So, what was my very first thought of my 31st year?

Well, glad you asked!

Presto decided to wake me up at 5:30. I assume to wish me a Happy Birthday, I’m not sure. But because of that I was able to remember the dream I was having.

It was in a closed women’s clothing store. The lights were off and the doors were locked. And I was playing Ping Pong with Britney Spears. But, just like in real life, I was terrible at it. She’d serve the ball (in a white gown like she was about to present an award on television) and I would miss it drastically. It would go flying off under a display of sweaters or something.

Only the floor was tillted. So it would immediatly start rolling back towards Britney, pass her by, and then slip under the wall.

So she’d have to serve a another ping pong ball.

I have no idea why I was there, but I do remember thinking ‘Why the hell is Britney Spears playing Ping Pong with me?’. The fact that she was playing it at all in a closed clothing store didn’t seem too surprising at the time.

I wonder how long I was playing (well, more failing then playing) before Presto woke me.

1 to 31

Wednesday, January 17th, 2007

In one minute, I’ll be 31.

With that one little slice of time I’ll be separated from the 20′s wholly and completely. No going back. No matter just how hard I dig my nails in.

The 30′s are the New 20′s. But I think that’s a damn lie.

As of this moment, my knees grind when I stand up, my jaw goes thunk when I chew, and my neck makes disturbing “pop” sounds when I stretch it.

Getting older isn’t for the faint of heart.

This is going to get worse before it gets better worse-er.

Happy Birthday
to Me!
:-)

Temple of Youth

Tuesday, January 16th, 2007

Tomorrow I turn another year older. Tragic, I know.

I’ve read that we live in a culture which worships youth. Of course the people that say this speak about how it’s terrible that we don’t idolize the wisdom which comes with age ‘experience’. Of course these people are all 40-somethings and just wish somebody would pay any attention to them.

If we are all about the Young, then the powerbase of the Young is: The Mall.

Seriously, just sit down for an average meal in your average food court and you will see teenagers who seem to be having a much better time then you ever had.

What you’ll learn at the mall is this: You are Not Cool Enough, Cute Enough, Trendy Enough, Sexy Enough, Thin Enough, Energetic Enough, Important Enough and certainly Not Young Enough.

All the stuff you lose with age, but I’ve never been any of those things to lose. So getting older shouldn’t bother me, right?

Yeah… sure.

A Genius in my own Mind

Tuesday, January 9th, 2007

“No way of thinking or doing, however ancient, can be trusted without proof.”

-Henry David Thoreau

Proof that I know what I’m talking about!

Tonight’s Fortune Cookie

Monday, January 8th, 2007

You are going to pass a difficult test.

I have my 12th anniversary this Saturday…. I can think of no greater test. And regardless of what the cookie says, I’m less then confident.

Snowballs

Monday, January 8th, 2007

This is the recipe for Snowballs my mother and Mrs. Mouland both made. They are precious to me. Not unlike the way water is precious in the desert.

Boil in saucepan for 3 – 4 minutes:
1/4 butter
1/2 cup evaporated milk (Carnation)

Add:
2 tbsp. cocoa – stir until well blended; cool until able to handle

Then add:
2 cups coconut
2 cups rolled oats
1 tbsp. vanilla

Shape into balls and roll in coconut.
Add more milk if too dry.

The World must know of this.

Tonight’s Fortune Cookie

Saturday, January 6th, 2007

You will be proud in manner but tolerant and generous.

Generous? Maybe.
Tolerant? Yeah, I think so.

Proud? Pride isn’t a concept I’m too familiar with.